Life has been strange but now it's okay again. 24th July 2024
I've been to this music festival not long ago and... This massive ass storm came out of nowhere, tearing everything down. No one died, and I was even lucky enough to get a ride from a friend. It almost felt like in a video game, and I still don't know how to feel about it. During the festival, a few hours before the storm came, I was in a very dark place in my head. I was wondering whether I should just go home somehow, or at least wishing to. I felt out of place, and on verge of crying. In a way I felt as if the extreme weather represented how I felt. I know that's bs, but it felt like a fiction moment. I went back to my character - Lana Perler, and wondered how she would feel. Maybe she would also be secretly happy that the storm came, seeing the perfect escape in it. It's a selfish way of looking at things, but I don't think it matters in this case, since it's not possible to have control over that (weather) anyway. Sometimes I wish I wasn't so sensitive. Sometimes I'm glad I am... But sometimes it really comes back to bite you in the bum.
Some of my observations on life:
- A true test to whether you are strong is to spend some time feeling alone on a music festival. (I'm not as strong as I thought I was.)
- A can of tuna is great for a quick snack at home at night. (In brine tho)
- Everytime you fix something, five more problems emerge.(Okay maybe not everytime but sometimes it feels like that)